Senin, 21 Mei 2012


So many excuses in this past year, and so many self indulgenes that has been done. And this is the result (indeed predictable),.. I"M NOT MOVING FORWARD" but rather going back so many steps,.. It's suck, actually,.. So, in my 4 days off  I'm renewing my thought about move on programme (btw, libur 4 hari naik berapa kilo lagi nih,...). Yupz, just like Josh Rayburn said, "life is about making the right decisions and moving on". Despite Dave Mustaine said that "moving on is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard", but I have to deal with all my past, right? I have my own responsibility,.. And actually "often the thought of pain is actually worse that the pain itself" (Greg Behrendt).
If would be analyzed, my move on plan maybe can be explained by Arif Muhammad as :1) Terpaksa Move On;2. Pura-pura Move On;3. Lupa Move On;4. Kebelet Move On (Terserah deh, mau dimasukin kriteria mana juga,..)
Even MOVE ON song by Bruno Mars below has made  me sad a little bit,.. Yes, in whole my live journey  I always able to move on,.. just because of  my Mom,.. But now,.. even I think it would be harder (just a little bit I hope), I won't be in my pathetic womb. I wanna life in my paradise that God's provided for me. 
When I awake it's you that makes me strong, and I know that you've been with me all along,
so many times I begin to close my eyes and listen to my heart, with you life is so easy why do I make it hard,
oh taking roads that lead me nowhere how do I expect to get there when will I Learn to just put you first.

I come to you now when I need you, but why do I wait to come see you,
I always try to do this on my own but I was wrong cause only with you can I move on.
I get out of my own way, let you have your way. Cause I realize I'm no good on my own,
I'm there for you, I'll sell for you I can't live without you
(Move On - Bruno Mars)
I love to say here that several quotes of Joel Osteen inspiring me.  He said that:
  • God knows your value; He sees your potential. You may not understand everything you are going through right now. But hold your head up high, knowing that God is in control and he has a great plan and purpose for your life. Your dreams may not have turned out exactly as you’d hoped, but the bible says that God’s ways are better and higher than our ways, even when everybody else rejects you, remember, God stands before you with His arms open wide. He always accepts you. He always confirms your value. God sees your two good moves! You are His prized possession. No matter what you go through in life, no matter how many disappointments you suffer, your value in God’s eyes always remains the same. You will always be the apple of His eye. He will never give up on you, so don’t give up on yourself.” 
  • You must make a decision that you are going to move on. It wont happen automatically. You will have to rise up and say, ‘I don’t care how hard this is, I don’t care how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I’m moving on with my life.
And yes,... I'm confessing that I have a little fear to walk and continuing my journey in this world. But as Pat Riley said, "courage is not the absence of fear, but simply moving on with dignity despite that fear."
And of all that, of course only The One that really strengthen me, there is Allah said: 
  • “Hai orang-orang yang beriman, bersabarlah kamu dan kuatkanlah kesabaranmu”. (QS.Ali Imraan: 200)
  • "Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui”. (QS.Al-Baqarah : 216)
  • “Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya” (QS.Al-Baqarah : 286)
  • Apakah kamu mengira bahwa kamu akan masuk surga padahal belum datang kepadamu sebagaimana halnya orang-orang terdahulu sebelum kamu? Mereka ditimpa oleh malapetaka dan kesengsaraan serta digoncangkan sehingga berkatalah rasul dan orang-orang yg beriman “Bilakah datangnya pertolongan Allah?”  (QS.Al-Ankabuut : 2)
  •  Allah mencintai orang-orang yang sabar.” (QS. Al Imran : 146)
  • “Jadikanlah sabar dan shalat sebagai penolongmu. Dan sesungguhnya yang demikian itu sungguh berat, kecuali bagi orang-orang yang khusyu’”. (QS.Al-Baqarah : 45)
  • Dan Dia bersama kamu di mana saja kamu berada. Dan Allah Maha Melihat apa yang kamu kerjakan” (QS. Al Hadid: 4)
  • “Tak seorang muslim pun yang ditimpa  gangguan semisal tusukan duri atau yang lebih berat daripadanya, melainkan dengan ujian itu Allah menghapuskan perbuatan buruknya serta menggugurkan dosa-dosanya sebagaimana pohon kayu yang menggugurkan daun-daunnya.” (HR Bukhari dan Muslim). 
 I make another plan in my life. Just for the short time I know,.. But I just have do what to do. I'll make anothers later,.."Cukuplah Allah bagiku; tidak ada Tuhan selain Dia. Hanya kepada-Nya aku bertawakal ” (QS.At-Taubah: 129)
 So, I think I would be OK then,..